cannot sleep lah..

after modify2 my blog, i dun know what to do next.. sleep?? didn't feel sleepy at all.. still on facebook but dunno what to do with dat thing anymore.. so maybe i should share a bit of story in my blog,in here..

this time the thing that wanna share is about my ex employer or place of work.. dunno what the exact word i should use.. its easier to say in malay (i keep saying to myself using english, english). the place that i meant is Citibank in City Square..

i worked there only about a month.. its a good place to find more money because its offer unlimited income for their worker with starting basic salary RM1700. I was in deparment called CSOS. its a nice place and a very good people in there. and of coz, some are not very good.

my job is to sell bank product such as credit cards, loan, saving account and etc through phone, using english to talk and communicate. the target market is singaporean and foreigners. its not citibank malaysia, its citibank singapore actually. looking very easy job to do right?? but for me it not like that.. in malay we said "indah khabar dari rupe" hehe..

the environment is very competitive, target oriented, a lot of pressure and so on.. i know i can adapt all of it very quick.. atcually easy for me to get use to it becoz my life is full of pressure.. but maybe my "rezeki" is not there.. after 1 month, i quit..

during that time, my emotion, my "jiwe" is not too tough.. there something keep troubling me.. difficult for me to be focus to anything i do.. so then, i decided to stay at home, refresh and find back my momentum to get me back on track..

the funny thing is, my reason to quit is language barriers. i said i cannot talk fluent english.. and they said, if you cannot talk fluent english, we will not selecting you a.k.a me for this job.. i lie to them, but not a gud one..

b4 i quit, its about after 2 and a half week at work in that place, i done sumthing that all the click in there thing its is crazy thing ever done by CSOS staff.. i cant remember the date n day but i remmber the time.. its around 2:15pm.. i'm so bored, then i juz walk away, window shopping in City Square without telling anyone..

i came back in the office at 6:00 becoz finally they realize i'm M.I.A.. haha..

its one of the worst part of my life in 2010.. actually, at first, i dun really want to work there.. like i said earlier, theres sumthing keep troubling my mind.. i think thats the reason why i cannot stay longer in that place.. my mindset is already set, i dun want.. huhu.. now i realize, mindset is one of the important thing..

its ok, life must go on.. although now i'm juz calculating the rice in kitchen (kire beras bile nak abes).. hehe.. but, i'm not give up..

I put an effort to find a new job, submit resume here and there, go to open interview, then pray to god.. hope to get a new job soon.. :)

new chapter of my life........ begin.....

its me.. naswan.. what?? naswan?? yes.. naswan.. N.A.S.W.A.N. its a new start for me after finishing my intern at TM jb and also a new start overall after what happen to me for the past few month that i can say terrible, misery..

now, 1st MAY 2010.. officially unemployed, and become a job seeker.. for those who read this, pray for me to get a job as soon as possible.. desperately wanna find a job to make people around me happy.. happy?? yeah.. happy..

from this moment, also i need to be more mature than before.. 26 april 2010, its my 23rd birthday.. there is no room for me to play around anymore.. its time to be a bit serious about my life.. for my family, my friend, my life.. not forgotten, also for my future Mrs Nas..

my family is my priority, i will always remember it.. then i want all of my frenz, be happy having me as a frenz.. also i wanna have a great life.. and also, when the time is right i will find some 1 who is just like me, and can understand me..

i accept all thing that happened to me.. i'm not as good as other in term of academic where im just a moderate degree holder.. but i think, with all of the experience plus hardwork plus never give up, i think i can survive..

i still sad and frust about my ex.. of coz im, bcoz she everything.. but she seem happy with her new bf.. her new bf can give her what she want.. i think im increase my level of maturity by let it go slowly.. she happy.. so to show im really love her, i pray for her happiness.. another thing is, its not me who disturb someone gf.. totally not me..

its begin now, new chapter.. and i will remember, life is so beautiful yet it can be so cruel..

sekuntum mawar merah.. sebuah puisi.. utk gadis pilihan.. ooooooooooo..... di bulan februari.. nyanyian kucing lorong a.k.a. alleycats.. hahaha.. dis is a great song.. jiwang?? no.. everybody hav a feeling and hav a right to show their feeling.. its natural.. hohoho.. kali nie aku akan try tulis sebyk mgkin cerite utk bacaan sesape yg open blog aku.. bkn ape, cume bg aku ni ruang yg terbaek utk aku bercerite ttg bnde yg jd hari demi hari..

maybe ade yg bley dijadikan teladan, ade gak yg kite bley ktawe bersame, ade gak cite sedey.. pokok nya, blog saya ini akan jd blog universal yg memuat kan semua jenis cerita kok.. hahaha.. tgk, bhsa aku pon universal..

utk kali nie.. tema cm gmbr n lagu kat ats tu.. aku dikeciwa kan.. bagai mana sampah terbuang.. begitu lah penderitaan ku.. sdey kot.. aku dh btol2 ptos ngn die.. my fren, my besfren, my gf.. syg cmne pon tp kalo dh tkdir x berpihak kat aku, nk wat cmne lg.. besor sgt ke pgkat aku nk melawan takdir..?? xpon, juz manusie biase jek..

but, there a lot of moment to be remembered.. her smile, her laugh.. its make me feel so happy to see she react like a kid when she got a flower from me.. she smile, she laugh, excited n looked so happy.. i juz want to share n remember da best thing dat we share together.. she got her first ring n first flower from me.. there no other boy give her thing like dis.. im proud..

walaupon aku pendek dpd die, die xpnah tunjuk yg die xselesa n malu bile jln ngn aku.. she still wanna hold my hand, she still called me "syg" kat mane2 pon, termasuk kat public.. die cool jek bile org ckp kteorg xspadan la, cm adik n akak la.. die bg aku "kuma2", cincin, n mcm2 lg yg aku xpnah imagine pon.. she really nice gurl sbenornyer...... but...

but..... nobody perfect.. aku pon slh jgk.. dier pon.. mmg kteorg terpakse akui, kteorg xserasi kot.. 2 jek aku bley ckp why akhirnye kteorg ptos.. she left me.. heart break.. adei.. the best moment that we been through together, now, sumtimes i dun want to remember although its a sweet moment..

now, kembali single.. am i ready to move on..?? juz wait n see.. if ade pmpn yg aku mnt n ske pon, dh xde konpiden la.. need time to refresh.. so skrg, its time to enjoy.. to "u", be happy ok..

selipar ku..

my new n latest REEF.. hahaha.. sbenarnye, selipar ni xde la br sgt kt pasaran sbb da ade yg terbaru.. RM199.90.. fuh, terbaik tp mahal nk mampos, xsggp nk berabis duit sebyk tu utk selipar.. ilang kt masjid mau seminggu termenung nnt..

aku minat gler siper ni sbb die REEF, color itam, simple, selesa n thn lasak.. nie REEF kedua aku, REEF 1st still bley pkai lg tp dh lame sgt.. Since form5 and still bertahan.. (selipar yg tapak keras tp design ade bunge2 sket..)

we are marsono group..!!

My family.. kalau x silap nie 1st time kami amik gmbr bersame2.. kepade yg sggh n melihat blog aku n secare x lgsg terpandang gmbr nie, jgn persoal kn kenape kaler bj aku berbeza dgn ahli keluarga.. bile tgk gmbr nie, selalu terpkr, mcm mane aku nk idup kalo xde diorg nie.. walaupon aku selalu bantai adik2 aku yg degil, berbeza pndpt ngn mak, abah n kakak, aku syg diorg nie..!! cume, cara aku berbeza..

abc a.k.a air batu campur..

nk dijadikan cerite.. aku ngan armada perang(kwn2 aku) jln2 pusing jb and then last2 kiteorg lepak kt tepi laut, danga bay.. smbil lepak kt situ kteorg borak2 and aku pon terkhayal tgk bintang terigt org jauh.. x jauh sgt pon.. kt Kluang jek.. ermm... ok back to da story.. ngah khayal pnye khayal sorg membe aku nie tetibe terigt pasal abc.. jam kt enset masing2 dh nenunjukkan pkul 9 stgh mlm.. slalu kteorg mkn kt kg melayu tp dh mlm, tmpt tu tutp kol 10, naek kete F1 pon xde mane smptnye.. so slps brainstorming, kteorg decide gi Anjung Warisan than go to Singgh Selalu.. best tmpt nye.. aku nk bwk my Lady gi Anjung Warisan bile die dtg jb tp ntah bile..ermm... back to da story.. naseb x baek, kt Anjung Warisan org yg wat ABC xdtg keje so xjual ABC utk ari 2.. naseb baek brader yg ckp tu kpale sempoi, klaka.. kalo x hangin gak.. next destination kteorg gi Senibong, mkn ats laut.. best.. tp yg x best nye ABC nye x sehebat n sefantastic ABC kg Melayu.. ABC kt situ xde aiskrim, perisa koko kurg, kcg kurg n byk susu.. walaupon dpt mkn tp sume pulang kecewa.. 2 hari berikutnye, slh sorg dpd kwn aku dpt tmpt best.. lokasi nye di Kempas, Restoran My Friend.. ABC die mmg best, RM4.. memg same hebat ngan ABC kg melayu.. (gambr kt ats).. dlm ABC tu pnoh ngan khazanah alam, cendol, cincau, kacang merah, buah kabung, buah pelam prisa koko,sirap,jagung n mcm2 lagi yg aku xpasti ape bende.. aku rase sedap aku telan jek.. memg berbaloi kne RM4.. tp smbil2 mkn, aku berangan lg, kan best kalo dpt mkn ABC ngan my lady... ermmm... end of story...

kerja..

cuti sem yg amat membosankan.. aku dok uma jek dpd start cuti smpi la ujung bln 5 br dpt gak la wat sumthing new in my life.. tmbh2 pengalaman.. aku spjg cuti cr keje sane cni, intebiu sane cni, yg kbykan nye hotel seluruh jb.. haha.. teringin nk keje kt hotel tp xdpt.. bkn rezeki aku kt situ kot.. then, member aku, usin merangkap ex gay partner( hehe, gurau) ajak keje kt Persada Convensyen Centre jb.. seronok 1jam RM6, keje as a steaward a.k.a pengutip pggn, cuci n setting pggn mgkuk for function.. aiyo, pnat gak.. tp aku keje sehari jek, keje juz bile ade fucntion n bile kurang staff.. dpt la keje dlm 9-10 jam ari tu..

then aku keje ngan Supermachine Movers.. company pndh alih mesin yg b'pangkalan di tmn mount austin, jb.. same gak cam keje td, aku keje bile keje byk and memerlukn extra man power..aku keje kt shimano pkn nenas selame 4ari and agak memenat kan and b'bhye.. nyaris aku injured t'sepit mesin.. kt situ aku dpt gak la cr RM200 lbey.. kat ats 2 gmbr2 pat keje yg aku dpt snap..

pasni aku nk try jd promoter plak.. kalo dpt mmg best sbb bley tmbh duit.. bkn pe, membe kt jb ni asek ajak kuar b'jimba-jimba.. duit sume tu.. kalo xikot nnt membe ckp lupe kwn plak.. lgpon kalo dpt jd promoter bley ar aku blajar bdpn ngan customer, sblom nie pon dh tp sje nk improve.. nanti papehal dh grade sng cket..