zaman muda mudi

hahahaha.... blom pape aku dh tersengeh2 tergelak2 sorg2 pikirkan zaman kanak2, zaman terbaik utk aku, or maybe zaman kanak2 mmg zaman terbaik utk sume org.. kpd sape2 yg knal aku mgkin dh tau background aku, asal dpd famili sederhana, budak yg muke ala2 innocent tp byk "bakat terpendam" aku nie.. bakat terpendam?? hahaha.. korg pikir la sendri, ade antare bakat tu yg aku bwk smpi skrg.. tinggal kat pandan mase tu, kawasan setinggan antara yg terbesar di JB kot skrg nie.. kawasan macam tu mmg heaven la bg aku n kawan2, ade kawasan luas utk main bola, glh panjang, rounders, gasing, baling selipar, baling tin, (tengah jalan), ade kawasan utk main guli yg redup (celah2 rumah org n bwh kolong rumah org), ade tmpt memburu and buat keje x brape bijak (hutan paya bakau), ade swimming pool semulajadi (sungai), ade tmpt racing basikal (track, jln 1 kampung)

aku tggl kat pandan dpd kecik smpi umor 9thn.. kami sekeluarga pindah ke tmpt lain, xperlu la dicerite pasal pindah.. mase nie masih berjinak2 dgn kwsn tuh.. maklum la aku nie anak yg dimanjekan mase tuh, kuar pon sekejap2 jek.. starting berkawan, aku main basikal dgn kawan. bile dpt basikal macam org naik syeh.. x igt pape dh.. time tuh mmg tiru mick doohan n max biaggi (rider motogp) weng sane, weng sini.. pnah skali, masuk bwh lori.. nasib lori tuh x bergerak, kalo x, mgkin korg x jmpe aku skrg nie.. tp yg paling teruk mase darjah 2, selekoh cecah lutut.. jahanam lutut aku.. bertahun jugak naik baik luke tuh.. smpi berulat2, damn.. time tuh mmg benti jap main basikal.. smpi skrg parut nye ade lg.. kekal..

mase umor 9thn, baru la aku btol2 bercampur dgn masyarakat.. segale permainan traditional, moden, indoor, outdoor sume aku lyn.. dlm kpale otak mmg M.A.I.N.. ade yg ikot musim, badminton, lyg2, gasing.. yg xde musim a.k.a selalu main of coz la bola, guli, hide n seek, kejar2, mandi air pasang, basikal n mcm2 lg la.. bak kate org, yg mane sempat, ade mase, sume kiteorg buat.. tidak dilupekan, congkak, carrom, saidina n video games pon kami lyn.. heaven.. tp mase nk masuk darjah 4, kami 1 famili pindah.. pindah mmg boring.. kne tggl kan kwn2, kwsn yg seronok n yg paling boring kne tukar sekolah n completely new environment of life.. tp ape la yg boleh dibuat, dh takdir nye mcm tu..

jeng..!! jeng..!! jeng..!! umor 11thn setengah aku kembali ke kg melayu pandan "finally naswan has comeback to kg melayu pandan" (ala2 The Rock). kali nie, mmg dreams come true.. aku mmg berharap dpt blik ke tmpt nie.. sbb dh makin beso, otak pon makin ligat (dlm erti kate lain, degil) kali nie aku stay kat tmpt tuh smpi tgkatan 3.. mcm2 bnde menarik yg jadi dlm tempoh mase nie.. antaranye, aku sunat, bergaduh utk kali pertame, cinte2 monyet, pon ade.. hahahahaha.. but i will not share about it.. and, macam2 lg lah..

umur 11 thn stgh, mase aku kat pandan.. kwn2 lame suke la aku blik, tp budak2 baru cm xbley trime.. yelah, time tu sy abg besar, taiko maaa... ayt yg sorg budak ckp kt aku, aku igt smpi skrg, "masuk kg org nk blagak plak, budak br wat cara budak baru" ayat budak2, bangang.. aku igt gengster sgt, aku bg la sedikit tumbukan di muke nye, nanges.. hahaha.. tp pastu kami kwn, kwn baik.. tp skrg xtau ntah mane dah dier.. time2 nie gak la aku n kwn2 tolong2 org pasang khemah utk ape2 majlis la, kawen, maulid nabi, syarahan n mcm2 lg.. (byk dah lupe)

umur 12 thn.. hahahaha.. aku sunat.. dh jadi budak besar.. aku sunat mase cuti pertengahan thn.. cuti 2mggu.. mase aku sunat, cume tggl 10, 11 hari nak naik sekolah.. haiyoo.. pg tuh aku mak n abah gerak ke kg melayu, sarapan n kemudian nye trus ke poliklinik seri alam.. mengikut jadual, sy org ketiga.. smpi2 jek sor budak keluar smbil nanges teresak2, aku still cool.. budak kedua masuk, lps beberape minit, die menjerit siap maki2 doktor.. bapak aku tgk aku, aku tgk bapak aku, kiteorg senyum.. tp dlm hati, "mati aku, mati aku.." budak kedua keluar, kain byk darah, x benti2 nanges plak tuh.. aku still cool.. sbenarnye aku mmg x takot pon.. haha.. tp mase bius mmg sakit.. huarrrggggghhh...!!!!!! jap jek, pastu setel.. balik umah sume org nak tgk.. ntah ape2 jek.. tp xpe, dpt duit byk.. hahaha.. dipendekkan cite 7 hari dh ok, hari ke 9 aku kuar umah, kne ejek jln kengkang.. kuar umah semate2 nk main bola, nasib baik x bentan..

umur 13 thn, dh beso dh, dh beso.. sekolah menengah beb.. main bola pon dh main kat padang, mandi air pasang pon mandi tmpt dalam2, semayang kat surau pon dh kne saf dpn, main basikal pon dh pegi jauh2.. tp ade satu bnde yg tetap same, blik lmbt kne marah, mandi air pasang kne bantai, kne marah ngn mak.. mase2 dh kire agak beso nie, kedegilan n jht tu same byk kot.. time bulan puasa, siang sume lembik jek.. tp malam kami hebat.. lari sane, lari sini, mercun sane, mercun sini.. lps berbuke, lps maghrib, bermule la kehebatan kami.. rumah org2 yg dibenci, yg sgt bengkeng dgn kami dr kecik smpi besar ni bagaikan medan perang.. perang mercun.. hahaha.. kesian cik eton n pakcik gemok tuh.. (igt lg name diorg) smpi ade yg kejar kiteorg dgn parang.. x cukup tanah masing2 lari.. tp mase raye kiteorg mintak maap blik.. hehe..

umur 14 n 15 thn.. sorg demi sorg kwn dh mule tunjuk perubahan.. 1 bnde yg dulu nye xpenting bg kiteorg sume tibe2 mula jd perbualan.. PEREMPUAN.. boring2.. boring pnye boring, aku tersuke plak kt sorg budak pmpn nie.. hahaha.. lupe, td aku ckp xnk cite.. ok itu saje.. mase nie yg menarik nye, aku n geng sgt terer pomen2 basikal.. tukar itu ini, cabut sane sini, pasang itu ini, spray sane sini.. aktiviti siang, jarang berlaku dah.. sume aktiviti mlm jek.. naik basikal ramai2.. time nie gak kami boleh dikatekan tiap2 malam akan main badminton kat tgh jln, bwh lmpu jalan (kalo gelap mane nmpk) dkt ngn umah cik denan.. seronok, kiteorg gelak, lepak2 situ smpi 1,2pagi, xde org marah pon.. kdg2 smpi ade penonton.. haha.. bosan main badminton, kiteorg main basikal, willy sane sini, lompat sane sini.. best, sgt best..

ape yg aku cite nie cume ringkasan jek.. kalo nk bg in detail, penat weyh.. ape2 pon, this is true story.. wooo.. wooo.. wo sweet child o mine....!!!!! aku suke zaman muda mudi.. aku bersyukur aku ade kenangan2 nie.. harap2 dpt gather ngn all of my childhood friend.. walaupon kite bergaduh mase main, bertekak, bertumbuk n mcm2 ber lg.. esok luse kite baik dh.. itu la best nye budak laki n zaman kanak2.. n yg lgi best ade antare kwn2 aku nie, yg aku nmpk dh jd org yg bergune dlm masyarakat n ade yg dh kawen n beranak pinak.. terbaik la korg..

i love my zaman muda mudi....................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

nak jadi baik.. tolong lah..

rase2 diri mcm dh "jauh" tersasar dpd jln yg benar.. mampu ke aku blik ke pgkal jln dgn usahe sndri?? dpd mane nak mule?? bile?? boleh ke?? selalu sgt terpkr hal nie kdg2 smpi takot nak tido coz takot xdpt "bgn" lg.. jht sgt ke aku?? skrg ye.. aku mampu jwb dgn yakin aku mmg jht.. dulu aku slalu ckp nk jd jht, skrg ni lah yg aku dpt.. xde ape yg baik, cool or whatsoever dgn jht.. sooner or later, bnde nie yg wat aku xtenang.. my advise, be careful on what u wish.. that what u will get..

sy nak jd baik.. sy bdk bermasalah tp bukan bdk gile.. org gile jek yg xde masalah.. lps sembahyang, rase malu nk berdoa, rase malu mohon doa dimakbulkan sbb aku cpt lalai.. ini perasaan normal atau x?? aku pon xtau.. yg aku pasti n percaye aku takot dgn kekuasaan-Nya.. aku takot.. knape aku jd mcm nie, aku pon tak tau.. kwn2 aku rata2 nye sume baik2.. tp aku pulak yg jht.. rase malu nk bergaul dgn diorg lg.. slh 1 sbb nye aku xnk hang out dgn korg..

tolong lah sy jd baik.. kebaikan yg lepas2 yg aku dh wat tuh x bermakne kalo aku teruskan dgn kejahatan aku skrg.. sedih bile terpikir blsn yg aku akan dpt nnt.. tolong..

liga inggeris bermula..

antare bende yg aku sgt minat n boleh dilabel hobi tegar aku ialah perkare2 berkaitan bola sepak or football atau kat USA diorg panggil soccer..





dipendekkan cerite aku mmg boleh dikate kanberilmu la jugak dlm kaji, tgk forecast and mcm2 lg.. cume main bola tuh jek ditahap biase2 saje.. tp aku bukan kaki bgku yek.. xcaye, jom main.. lalala..

feveret team n player seperti yg tertera kat ats nie, liverpool and fernando torres.. biar la org nk ckp ape, dr dulu smpi skrg aku tetap setia sokong team nie.. atleast boleh nmpk pendirian aku kat situ.. loser ke, x kuat ke ape ke, tetap Liverpool.. klh aku sokong, mng lg lah semangat aku sokong..

neway, 1st match dah pon lepas.. 1st match kena lwn arsenal n juz manage a draw.. Ngog bg leading dulu utk liverpool then pepe reina blunder wat match ended 1-1.. bengang jek.. last minit pnye silap.. tp x ngape.. still long way to go..

ape2 pon.. tgk bola ni kire ok la dpd tgk bnde x berpaedah.. merayau x tentu hale, heng sane heng sini, xde hasil.. tp xdilupe kan juge, aku sokong gak bola sepak tempatan.. support our local maa.. Johor fc..!! and lg 1, aku minat giler ngn Malaysia pnye national team skrg.. a lot of improvement.. keep it up guys..

ok, rase nye itu shje nk dikongsi.. maju la sukan utk semua.. cewah..!!

kesakitan..

2 or 3 hari lps aku dpt luka kat lutut kiri mase main ftsal.. nmpak cm biase, balik pon xde rase pape.. cume mase mandi tuh mengeliat sikit la.. pedih siot...!!! pas mandi aku pkai handyplast, sbb nk pkai suar pjg, takut melekat..




tp aku nyesal.. luke tuh x kering.. pastu mase cabut handyplast tuh.. ya allah, buleh thn gak pedih nye.. hehe.. dh lame xde luke.. tmbh pedih bile dgn bulu2 kaki aku tercabut.. wow..!!



hari ni kemuncak nye, berdenyut2, dh mule bernanah.. damn sakit.. bukan xthn sakit, tp mmg sakit.. tp x nangis x.. sapu minyak gamat, pas sapu, fuh.. terase minyak tuh bekerja kt luke aku tuh.. kaki pon x bley gerak sgt, sbb luke tuh kat lutut.. last luka kat lutut mase darjah dua.. main basikal, corner baring cm valentino rossi konon nye.. last2 masuk bwh lori, zas..!! terkopak kulit.. hehehe..


utk menambah penderitaan aku ptg td xtau pesal.. peha aku bgkak.. ssh giler nak jln.. tanya abah n mak, diorg ckp kelenjar.. mcm penah dgr tp aku pon xbpe tawu sgt.. abah ckp mgkin ade kaitan dgn luke kat lutut aku nie.. so then mak ckp, "nnt mak wat asam jawe bubuh garam.. kasi sejuk peha tuh n kecut kan bgkak.."


skrg nie juz baring.. mengharap kan ubat yg mak aku wat nie mujarab.. blom ade pape perkembangan lg nie.. hope cpt baik coz esok ade 2nd interview dgn digi.. aiyak!! xmo gi interview jln kengkang2..

accident.. first time..

berlaku dlm sekelip mate.. on da way nk gi second interview with digi kt tmn pelangi.. aku sondol kete singaporean yg mcm sesat kat jb nie. btol2 lps traffic light simpang empat kat hotel cristal crown..

hampir terlupe.. JKB 5956 nie kete akak aku sbenarnye.. pas accident aku trus bwk gi bengkel.. x jadi gi 2nd interview dgn digi.. nasib baik org digi tuh memahami.. this is my 1st time involving in accident.. aku agak tenang walau pon mcm nk tumbuk jek muke pkcik tu yg blur2.. pas langgar, aku undur then aku kuar..

bile kuar tgk kete pkcik tu xde pape.. cume cat kete die terkopek sket2.. mgkin slh aku sbb terleka sesaat mase tuh.. aku tgk jln clear, xde papepon.. kebetolan kaki aku luke kat lutut, aku pkai suar pjg so x selesa.. aku tunduk btol kan suar jap, then tgk dpn blik kete dh dekat.. bum..!! padahal jln clear kt dpn dier, kenape dier brek emergency..?? xphm mcm mane die buleh dpt lesen.. penting kan diri.. suke2 jek nk brek.. kalo ade hlgn kat dpn dier xde la aku sakit ati sgt sbb totally slh aku.. nie x, jln mmg clear.. dpn blkg clear..

xpela, bende dh nk jd.. next time kena lebih peka.. sume bnde mmg ade 1st time.. so terime jek la.. kete pon dh antar repair.. buat pakej jimat, RM2,3 ratus la bajet yg akan terbang.. aku wat, aku tanggung la sume..

How I Met Your Mother..

salah 1 cerite komedi omputih yg aku sangat minat selain "friends' and "my wife and kids".. pecaye lah.. sgt klakar cite nie.. tp skrg nie aku tgk marathon 5 episode ari ahad dpd pkul 10:30am smpi 1:00pm kat channel 711.. aha, cite ni gak dilabel sbg PG ok.. Parental Guidance.. ade ayat2 n kelakuan yg xsesuai utk tontonan budak2..

aku tgk cite nie berulang2 sejak lbh 2thn.. biasela, astro kalao x ulang2 x sah.. tp bgs gak sbb aku susah nk jemu bab2 bende klakar nie.. hah, selain klakar, cite nie ade mengisahkan friendship, cintan cintun sket.. tu yg jd penambah perisa..

ceritenye mengisahkan Ted Mosby, seorg arkitek yg mencerite kan kpd anak2 nye mcm mane die jumpe mak bdk2 tu.. setiap awal2 cerite mmg mcmtu dlm beberape saat then flashback zaman mude ted dgn kwn2 nye..

kwn2 nye ialah, marshal, gf marshal a.k.a bini dier, lily, gf n ex gf ted, robin n kwn baik ted, barney.. sume mmg best, ade watak n kekuatan masing2.. mmg klakar..

tp dlm klakar, tetap ade msj.. antare nye betape pntg nye persahabatan dlm idup ni.. susah nk idup kalau xde kawan.. selain tu, tgk cite nie, aku dpt gak improve sket2 english aku baik dari segi grammar, listening and speaking.. and pada aku yg paling best dlm cite nie ade tunjuk, EVEN KITE DAH BREAK UP NGAN EX GF KITE, KITE STILL BOLEH BERKAWAN BAIK.. (cthnye ted dgn robin)

kalau ade mase tgk la ye.. kalau boleh download lg bagus, pastu share2 la.. hehe..

cannot sleep lah..

after modify2 my blog, i dun know what to do next.. sleep?? didn't feel sleepy at all.. still on facebook but dunno what to do with dat thing anymore.. so maybe i should share a bit of story in my blog,in here..

this time the thing that wanna share is about my ex employer or place of work.. dunno what the exact word i should use.. its easier to say in malay (i keep saying to myself using english, english). the place that i meant is Citibank in City Square..

i worked there only about a month.. its a good place to find more money because its offer unlimited income for their worker with starting basic salary RM1700. I was in deparment called CSOS. its a nice place and a very good people in there. and of coz, some are not very good.

my job is to sell bank product such as credit cards, loan, saving account and etc through phone, using english to talk and communicate. the target market is singaporean and foreigners. its not citibank malaysia, its citibank singapore actually. looking very easy job to do right?? but for me it not like that.. in malay we said "indah khabar dari rupe" hehe..

the environment is very competitive, target oriented, a lot of pressure and so on.. i know i can adapt all of it very quick.. atcually easy for me to get use to it becoz my life is full of pressure.. but maybe my "rezeki" is not there.. after 1 month, i quit..

during that time, my emotion, my "jiwe" is not too tough.. there something keep troubling me.. difficult for me to be focus to anything i do.. so then, i decided to stay at home, refresh and find back my momentum to get me back on track..

the funny thing is, my reason to quit is language barriers. i said i cannot talk fluent english.. and they said, if you cannot talk fluent english, we will not selecting you a.k.a me for this job.. i lie to them, but not a gud one..

b4 i quit, its about after 2 and a half week at work in that place, i done sumthing that all the click in there thing its is crazy thing ever done by CSOS staff.. i cant remember the date n day but i remmber the time.. its around 2:15pm.. i'm so bored, then i juz walk away, window shopping in City Square without telling anyone..

i came back in the office at 6:00 becoz finally they realize i'm M.I.A.. haha..

its one of the worst part of my life in 2010.. actually, at first, i dun really want to work there.. like i said earlier, theres sumthing keep troubling my mind.. i think thats the reason why i cannot stay longer in that place.. my mindset is already set, i dun want.. huhu.. now i realize, mindset is one of the important thing..

its ok, life must go on.. although now i'm juz calculating the rice in kitchen (kire beras bile nak abes).. hehe.. but, i'm not give up..

I put an effort to find a new job, submit resume here and there, go to open interview, then pray to god.. hope to get a new job soon.. :)